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Last night was the first game of the weekly bowling league of scc and i finally went back to join them. I didn't bowl at all the last season and was happy to see all the regulars, especially the youth bowlers. They seemed to have grown so much though it's only about one year or more i last saw them.

I went to the gym in the afternoon and was shocked to see paul's chart still in the box together with other members who update their regime regularly. Paul's chart was the thickest as he stapled 5sheets together starting from mid 2007. He was a super-organised person and his chart was so detailed. He would tabulate the total distance he jogged for the particular month and his accomplished timing for every session, the nos of sets of other exercises, the weights, etc etc. I studied the chart for a while and noticed he trained really hard prior to the standard chartered marathon in dec 2007. After he was diagnosed with stomach cancer in january 2008, he stopped for about 8mths and the chart continued in sept 2008 and he wrote "come back!" He was not able to jog as much anymore and also the timing was much slower which is understandable since he had gone thru such a major operation and followed by 6 cycles of chemo and 28 sessions of radio-therapy.

I just want to say that I am very proud of paul; his perseverence, discipline, determination and most of all his optimism. He had organised most of the things so well that it makes me feel so helpless at times without him. Well, i just have to learn to adjust now.

Last night was the first night i slept on my own since paul went home on 24 oct as pamelia had gone to the kids' camp to be one of the volunteers. Can't imagine her looking after the kids as she's so kiddish herself. We miss her especially daniel and will pray that she's well and looking forward to seeing her again tomorrow but she will be flying off again the next day to hong kong, macau and china with her dad and mum and also julia's family.