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Paul has not woken up at all since dr kok started the 2nd line sedation and the phlegm seems much lesser. He looks more comfortable now. I missed his loud and strong voice. I managed to catch some good sleep last night since he didn't need to be purged.

Paul had fever(39.4deg) at about 11pm and the doctor ordered volteran suppository for him. Dr Kok told me they will not start him on any anti-biotic at all. Fever subsided for awhile and when i woke up at 2.30am, i saw the nurses crowding round him and thought something happened to him but was told he was feverish again(38.8). After it subsided, i managed to get some sleep and woke up at 7am.


He definitely looks more comfortable and i know this is his wish - to be heavily sedated until the Lord takes him home so that there's no more pain and sufferings for him.


I asked dr khoo this morning whether he believes there's a miracle and he told me there's miracle everyday. I know it's better for paul to go home and i just have to pray for strength to go on without him by my side.


I miss him so much and when i browsed through some of our photos, i just felt so sad that he's so skinny now. Just want to pose some nice and memorable photos of him.

(2006 in melbourne-just before our wedding)

(our wedding on the boat on 17 sep 2006)

(celebrated our 1st anniversary at the japanese restaurant)

(celebrating paul's 50th birthday on 26mar2008-he just had 2sessions of chemo-therapy but still very fit and positive. He used to say the only difference he feels is the lost of hair and felt abit tired after the therapy)

(2008 dec -before we found out about the relapse but he had been losing weight everyday and even pet-scan and ct-scan couldn't detect the tumour inside his small intestines)

(some friends brought paul a cake on his 51st this year)

(our last vacation - church retreat in april this year. doctor gave the green light for him to go. It was a miracle that with the 2 tubes attached, he was very comfortable during the drive to malacca)